The last 6 months have been pretty bad. The failure of my marriage, the fall-out from the choices I made, moving to TX and wanted desperately to move back home. Wondering if I should try to salvage my marriage. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I don't trust my own choices. I went from being decisive and pretty independent in action to being afraid to leave my apartment on my own and being unable to make any decisions. I'm turning into a recluse and I DON'T LIKE IT, but it doesn't really help to know that.
I have an appointment on the 31st to address various problems: PTSD, anxiety, depression and probably bi-polar.
We'll see what happens...
My BF sent me this:
"A good woman is proud of herself.
She respects herself and others.
She is aware of who she is.
She neither seeks definition from the person she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind.
She is quite capable of articulating her needs.
A good woman is hopeful.
She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true.
She knows love, therefore she gives love.
She recognizes that her love has great value and must be reciprocated. If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears.
A good woman has a dash of inspiration, a dabble of endurance. She knows that she will, at times, have to inspire others to reach their true potential.
A good woman knows her past, understands her present and moves toward the future.
A good woman has faith in her abilities.
She knows, with that faith the world is her playground, but without it she will just be played.
A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love."
